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Through ritual performance art and butoh dance, I am researching the dance, movement, image, translation, the revolution we need for our times through deep remembrance of what feels more human, in our instincts and dreams. I play with form to blur the spaces between performance / ritual and art / daily life, toward the feelings of collective embodiment and connection to all. Art is my practice of poesis- deep attention, imagination, and holding space for beauty and the sublime to emerge. My need to dance and create perhaps stems from previous stories of deep suffering and relatedly, the overwhelming propensity to know and feel the pain of the world. After studying Rhetoric and Philosophy on the art of form at University of California, Berkeley, I continued to look for meaning and ways to save the world and myself, experimenting with new containers for existence through connective games, multimedia experiences, and social practice experiments. With more heartbreaking, then thankfully, heart opening experiences, my angry fix-it punk mode has exhausted to reach toward something more aspirational, toward love, compassion, grace, ___. Years later, at the time my Philosophy professor, Hubert Dreyfus, who taught about creating meaning in a secular age, passed, I saw Atsushi Takenouchi’s butoh ritual performance and felt a gripping resonance, watching his heart beat during the performance. I was struck by what the body can transmit, beyond language and concepts. Without formal dance experience, I flew to Italy for Jinen Butoh School. In reflection, I relate my deep resonance to butoh dance to its origins in and charge from conflict, as it was created by artists in Japan as a revolutionary dance in the WWII era to heal and transform death into life.

Dancing and creating are my ways of loving and embracing all of the world at once, giving my body to the wind, the memories, space, fantasies, nature, the scenes we may create together.

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Past themes and pursuits of my work have included: stories of identities beyond socio-political and emotional divides, explorations of mental illness, breaking the patriarchal feminine and masculine; transforming death into life; ocean; feeling of home; authentic expression; sense of agency and transgression; aesthetics of friendship; radical interconnectedness; empathy; everyday rituals; community discourse; the gift of depression

If any of this resonates with you, perhaps we can co-create a moment, a movement, an art piece, a protest, a love, devotion, and existence.

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I’m grateful for my teachers of dance and life: Atsushi Takenouchi of Jinen Butoh School, Anastazia Louise Aranaga of Bad Unkl Sista, Mizu Desierto of Water in the DesertYumiko Yoshioka, Maureen Fleming, Haruko “Crow” Nishimura of Degenerate Art EnsembleAriellah Aflalo of Darker Stills Studio, Sidney Huang of Mysore Ashtanga.  

I'm inspired by Werner Herzog in his ecstasy of truth, Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Rūmī in love, Joanna Macy in pursuit of the great turning, Joshua Oppenheimer in his relentless yet compassionate reveals, Mary Oliver in her unique individualism in relation to the whole and her way of life, Atsushi Takenouchi in his embodiment of truth, Anastazia Louise in her loving attention to every living being, Marina Abramovic in her fearless giving of herself, Mizu Desierto for fearlessly creating a new age in dance and culture, Reggie Watts in the sexiest bearness, Liz Mak in her adventures to save endangered stories, Ludwig Wittgenstein in his sense of agency in life and language, Margaret McCarthy in her truthful clowning, Hubert Dreyfus in creating meaning in a secular age, Tyler Krupp in his beautiful, daily devotion to the whole, Albert Kong in his transgressive tricks, Idexa Stern, in her doodles of love and collaboration, Christina Tran in simplifying difficult emotions and messages, Louis C.K. in his creative courage, Nicky Case in their commitment to social change, Mattie Brice in her designs toward better relations, and Logan Williams in his otherworldly disclosures.

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They say it’s the last song.
They don’t know us, you see.

It’s only the last song if we let it be.”
- Dancer in the Dark

“There's a song that wants to sing itself through us. We just got to be available. Maybe the song that is to be sung through us is the most beautiful requiem for an irreplaceable planet or maybe it's a song of joyous rebirth as we create a new culture that doesn't destroy its world. But in any case, there's absolutely no excuse for our making our passionate love for our world dependent on what we think of its degree of health, whether we think it's going to go on forever. Those are just thoughts anyway. But this moment you're alive, so you can just dial up the magic of that at any time.”
- Joanna Macy